Never really had a family. Just people who used me out of convenience. My mother has told me this outright, this isn't theory.
I guess I figured that I was useful in some way, where I'm staying. At least enough to make my presensce more desirable than not. I guessed wrong.
Maybe I'll change my mind, but this is the end of 30thhour. The more time I spend on the net, the more I realize nothing is here.
But if my place in the world always turns out to be a daydream, maybe the problem isn't the world.
"No matter where you go, there you are." - Jack Nicholson