Sometimes I like it when old ex biker guys heckle me on the train ride home for a half hour, solid, without any provocation whatsoever. I especially like it when they assume a karate stance, wind up and punch me in the chest.

I like that a real lot.

Been doing four hours of commute and ten hours of work, five days a week. I can spend forever doing something if I think I'm useful. Right now I just feel like a drag on the entire office. I ask questions and I get answers but there is never any time to take notes, only to solve the immediate problem, and so I wind up asking the same questions every day. Nevermind my notoriously steep learning curve.

Last week I got frustrated, confused and so worried about making a mistake on a shipment that I snapped at my boss. In a sense I'm lucky she didn't fire me. I would have deserved it.

I don't mind the hours and I don't mind the commute but this is either going to have to become second-nature to me very quickly or it won't last. Yeah, making $9/hr in retail sucks but not as much as spending two hours on a train every day with little to do but contemplate all the day's fuckups.

That which I thought could withstand anything has collapsed over nothing. Three point five grams of a dried plant delayed for six hours and a decision involving less brain power than I generally allocate to clipping my nails has put an end to the only important thing I've ever owned.

I'm done. This isn't for everyone.

DSC_2285, originally uploaded by bodhisoma.

Opposite the bus stop in Watertown, MA. 10PM, windy, cold and raw.

Blech.

I completely missed this.

"Diebold Election Systems Inc. expressed alarm and state election officials contacted the FBI yesterday after a former legislator received an anonymous package containing what appears to be the computer code that ran Maryland's polls in 2004."

Oh, that's interesting.

It gets better.

"Morrill said two of three disks were never used and that the third was version 4.3.15c, which was used in Maryland during the 2004 primary."

...which is complete BULLSHIT. If the thieves got, for example, version 2.1.1, then they have perhaps 95% of the source code that appears in version 2.1.2. Saying a specific version of compromised code was never used in an election is another way of saying "we pray to god that the version bump fixed every vunlerability that existed in the version we submitted last week."

Assurance that every citizen's vote is counted is effectly gone. What? You think it's beyond the pale to imagine a discussion in a public park involving the question "so how do you want to steal an election" and Karl Rove's lips? Do you have any doubt whatsoever that this administration would press that button if the opportunity presented itself and their power was in jeopardy?

Bush has suspended habeus corpus which means the difference between being in prison or not is the tolerating nature of the president.

Two nuclear powers emerged on his watch. A war that's completely out of control that we can't sustain and we can't extract ourselves from.

No WMD. Myers. Plamegate. Foley. Haliburton. Abu Ghraib. Abramoff. Rove. Libby. Ney. Shit, I'm just rattling off the ones that come to mind.

To everyone who reads this neurosis of a blog, please access it (and update your bookmarks) by going to blog.pho7o.com, which is my domain. The short story is that blogger has been obstinant about letting me log into my account. Synching the new blogger beta with the old system seems to have quashed the login. But it lets me in sometimes. *shrug

[note: this might take a few hours to kick in]

Some new pics up.

[00:43] GypsyKitten: Oh.. believe me.. I told her everything.
[00:43] bodhiFive: I don't suppose an unhappy Nikki is a pleasant thing to behold.
[00:44] GypsyKitten: I beat down with logic.. not with screams or anger.. I'm a pretty mellow bitch.

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My daughter used her first swear in front of me. Not at me, wonder of wonders, but in the act of describing "ABC." A slang acronym meaning "this is private/an inside joke." But also stands for "Ass-Backward Country."

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I'm making a music video. Possibly to the Postal Service song We Will Become Silhouettes. And it'll take a year to plan and shoot. Who wants to put money on whether this project outlives this month? *sigh

It's stuff like this that makes me cringe. And realize how fucked we really are as a nation.

"Fifteen of Dongducheon's leaders shaved their heads last week and went to Seoul to hoist a protest banner outside the National Assembly building. The banner was written in their own blood."

Enjoying the late Rockport summer.

I upgraded my blogger account to this new beta thing. Remember, Google owns blogger.com. So I upgraded and now Picasa's blog feature is broken.

Which is retarded because Picasa is owned and distributed by Google.

Anyway, train ride home.

 

Spotted.

 

Flowers in Rockport. I can't remember the name but Tricia knew it off the top of her head.

 

Out of the subway and into the world.

 

An excellent jam band outside Kennedy Plaza, Providence, Rhode Island.

Open letter to Tony Maciulis, Senior Producer at MSNBC.

Date: Thu, 5 Oct 2006 18:00:24 -0400
From: "Jason"
To: Maciulis@MSNBC.com
Subject: Worse Than Fox

In your article, "Foley's Conduct Was No Secret To Bloggers," you conclude:

"That eerie prediction from [blogger] Mike Rogers, insinuating that more would be revealed in time for the Midterm election, is alarming. Have both parties put political advantage ahead of the protection of children?"

This parallel boggles the mind.

On one hand we have the chronic inability of Republicans to do the right thing for months (if not years) when confronted with information that a powerful Republican on the House Caucus on Missing and Exploited Children has been soliciting sex with minors and treating the pages program like a dating pool.

On the other hand there is a single, anonymous blogger that may or may not have sat on this information in order to inflict the most danage on the GOP for the November elections. Of course he might have been a person talking out their *** who got lucky.

This, in your mind, begs the question of whether both parties have put children second? Both PARTIES? Really?

When did Mike Rogers become representative of the entire Democratic party?

Do you even think this stuff through before you publish?

Jason

 

Dangling from the floor above us, mid-renovation. 

 

Ruby was napping as Ruby is wont to do on a Tuesday night around 9PM. Adjusted all my settings, got myself in close, quietly, framed the shot, autofocused and then...

Ruby woke up. And that's when this picture was taken. 

 

I saw her camera and it looked comparable to the nicer models from, say, 1960. Blew me away in an anachronistic way. So I just asked her if I could take a picture for my portfolio. Her friend seemed less than enthusiastic but agreed for want of a good reason otherwise.

I snapped a few shots and this is easily my favorite.

Apparently the girl on the right is from Poland and ridiculously nice. Wound up bumping back into her five minutes later while boarding the outbound commuter at North Station. Here on a quasi vacation for business down south and some big-city hopping on the way back, said she was a city girl.

My kind of person.

me: HAHAHAHA. On CNN's front page... "Former Rep. Mark Foley allegedly interrupted a vote on the House floor in 2003 to engage in cyber-sex with a former page, ABC News reports."

ella: So...was he drunk then, too?

From the NBC Nightly News podcast:

Late today Foley's lawyer held a press conference, he said Foley takes full responsibility for the emails and added "Foley has never had inappropriate sexual contact with a minor. He absolutely is not a pedophile."

This is kind of like saying a person who is attracted to men and desires gay sex is straight if they haven't actually done it yet. Since when is the descriptor predicated on the act?

Since these fuckers are so big on waving around their faith, I wonder what the Bible has to say about a sin being relative to the thought or the act. Hmmm...

"But this is what you concealed in your heart, and I know that this was in your mind..."

     Job 10:13

"Repent of this wickedness and pray to the Lord. Perhaps he will forgive you for having such a thought in your heart."

     Acts 8:22

 

Foley and Musharref and Woodward. Oh my.

I use Picasa to post pics to this blog but it's been acting flaky lately, hence the shift to flickr. But flickr, despite its greatness, isn't really geared to act as a blog. So screw that.

So here's a pic of Tank being his normal, chilled out, charming motherfucker self.