I've got bits and pieces of this assassin-of-youth television cum spoken word rant rattling around in my head. I ought to commit it to paper, I really should. I guess I'm afraid of writer's block, not being able to finish the job, that I'll get painted into a corner and uninspired halfway through.

Got out of the house today. Sorely needed. Spent time with Ella which is always time well-spent. Now I'm considering watching Kerry's speech. I'm torn between my desire to see Anyone But Bush win and my stomach turning from watching a politician say precisely what he thinks I want to hear.

Laundry should wash itself. Someday it will. But not this day.

Today was a good kind of hellish. Woke -- five minutes before my shift starts -- did the work thing for a few hours, went swimming in a quarry for a good hour and exhausted the sh*t out of myself and then went back to work. For the first time ever we got hammered and I didn't screw up. Hell, it was kind of easy.

So I have the "must swim" itch now. Gotta admit, the quarry was nice. No muck that I normally associate with fresh water. Even got spec'd out by a family of large mouth bass.

I lead an exciting goddamn life, I tell you.

Oh, this is an interesting quote! Ed Gillespie, Republican National Committee Chariman, called the democratic party "a very angry, bitter, harsh party." And apparently they're going to be monitoring the internet for anything they don't like. So Ed, here's something to pass the time:

OVER 900 AMERICANS (god knows the Iraqis don't count) ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF YOUR LYING, STEALING, ASSHOLE OF AN UN-ELECTED CRACKHEAD PRESIDENT.

And that's just where I begin.

Oops. Almost forgot about how we turned the entire world's post-9/11 goodwill into pure hatred. Guess you just kind of fucked up the intel on Iraq's connection to al Queda, Iraq's connection to Niger, Iraq's interest in aluminum tubes, Iraq's theoretical mobile weapon labs and Iraq's defectors. Gosh, so many honest blunders!

And turning Clinton's 236 billion ($236,000,000,000.00) surpluss into a record-destroying $477 billion deficit. Quite a feat. Can't forget that. Wait, I thought it was the democrats that liked to spend... Don't you have the White House, the senate and the house?

Jeeze, almost forgot about how the government can now find out what books I read without any judicial oversight! Thanks George!

Last but surely not least, the Bush administration's willingness to attempt a constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage. Shucks. I was always taught that the conservatives wanted to intrude on your life less.

Ed, I'm sure you're convinced that there is no connection between the Bush clan being an oil family with HUGE ties to the oil industry and Iraq being the second largest untapped oil supply in the world. And I'm just as sure your conscience tells you Cheney and his close, personal friend Ken Lay were chatting about argyle patterns on all those private and confidential White House visits and not, say, energy policy. That would explain why Cheney won't release the records of the visits, right?

Tell you what, Ed (and I pray to god you read this); Die a slow, lingering death. You are a lying, worthless, piece-of-shit Republican shill. Eat shit. EAT MY SHIT.

Angry? ... Well, maybe a little...

The difference between the Democrats and the Republicans is dirt simple. Liberals tend to understand that a range of opinions are not only desirable but a fundamental part of the democratic process.

The best sign alteration ever.

I would give anything for someone to talk to right now.

It's funny how a few simple words can put everything into place. I woke up this morning with a clarity I haven't had in years.

For those of you internet-media-challenged (and you know who you are), here is a snip:

there's nothing that's made
that can't be improved upon
there is nothing that is made
that can't be moved upon
you put a brick wall though
a field of clover
I used to go through
now I just go over
you can't stop the movement
you just change the moves
everybody that's living
got something to prove
got something to lose
and if you don't
you're dead
the movement of daily life is choreographed
by the music in our heads
it's our hearts, beating
it's our lungs, breathing
it's the frustration
the irritation, elation, the confusion
in our brains
it's the heartache
the winter summer joy pain
it is the blood, guts and glory
it is the same old story
and if you really want to live
well then it all just *goes*

I remember the tingle that went through me the instant I first realized that she liked me back.

"There are 100,000 total marijuana smokers in the US, and most are Negroes, Hispanics, Filipinos and entertainers. Their Satanic music, jazz and swing, result from marijuana usage. This marijuana causes white women to seek sexual relations with Negroes, entertainers and any others."

     - Harry Anslinger, U.S. Commissioner of Narcotics, testifying to Congress on why marijuana should be made illegal, 1937. (Marijuana Tax Act, signed Aug. 2, 1937; effective Oct. 1, 1937.)

I have to get this out of the way. Wrong. Just ...wrong.